Insanity

2 days ago i went to giant with my grandma, my sis and my "mom". My grandma went back first after all that shopping. However it was so different for my "mom". She took a very long time to finnish and even worst, i and my sis went back first and we were very early and i am really serious about the ic card making photo. Really serious and very eager but my mom didnt use her brains and then waited so long to check out and take a bus which take like wat!? 1hr + of my whole life.

The worst thing is that i have to pass motion! I admit i cant store my SHIT for like 1hr+++ so i quickly shit out and throw it away in the rubbish bin (of cos with tissue paper) and it was the worst thing in my LIFE! WTF! She dont even care about ANYTHING about me. I am proud to say i really dislike her so much.

SO i quickly rushed out my house and ran non-stop to elias mall took like 2 mins. I didnt care if i got banged by the car, i didnt care about the time. I know it was late but i cannot accept the fact that it was her that made me late so in the end the shop closed and i didnt take my photo. FCK you man, becos of YOU i became insane, angry and most of all very disgraceful at the fact that i have a mother like that. How could you!?

She then finally said to take my photo at white sands i was really pissed off and mad. It turns out my photo that i took to be very ugly dued to my angerness, a bitter face trying to smile.

The good thing is that i realised i could run faster than i can and jump higher than i can if i am serious at things. I can do it, without her help and i want to be away from her as far as possible.

But however, as long as she's here and i cant avoid her
Insanity is taking over me, I'll be losing my mind and its all madness and soon hatred.

All these times she has only think about money the benefits of herself and very very VERY little for others. She cant change even a bit, plssss! She have sparingly any faith and trust of other people becos she lost it.

The only thing now is for a miracle to happened and for me to be in peace.