Hatred. (dun read if you are negative like me now)

Depressed, greatly.

Today was super bad and extremely horrible. I wanted a haircut and i ask it yesterday but what? My mother dilly dally until around 7+ she rushes things AND I FEEL LIKE KICKING HER ASS. Yes im that angry. she annoyed me, she make me hate her to the core of the Earth. I know im not suppose to hate my parents but i really really really! cant respect them and no matter what i still have a gruge. Just now i was crying when i got home after my haircut, alone. I hate it i tripped for the 2nd time. My mom is very ignorant and stupid. she jolly well knew that i had kayaking yesterday and all my bones were cracking, but what? she took my slippers instead of hers and went off hurriedly and left me behind. What a bastard! My heart and my mind damn hurts now and i feel like taking the chopper and stabbing her >=(. She doesnt care for anything except money, getting rich, being kiasu. Words cannot express my anger and hatred of her. The more i felt like leaving home and maybe live with my grandma..

When i was younger i felt the same except is was less than the amount of pain now. I wanted to run away from reality and mostly away from home. It was the friends i had then who keep me moving on with life. It was you guys that help me but then i was de-motivated, twice, no more than that.
People make mistakes but they still do it, what's the point of saying sorry?

Now i just want a friend that could be beside me through all the problems i have. The wound is just too deep..